loving u from a distance is best 4 me..

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Sometimes, in our relentless efforts to find the person we LoVe, we fail to recognize & appreciate the people who LoVe us. . We miss out on so many beautiful things & simply because we allow ourselves to been slaved by our own selfish concerns. Go for the man of deeds & not for the man of words for you will find rewarding happiness not with the man you LoVe but the man who LoVes you more.The best LoVers are those who are capable of LoVing from a distance, far enough to allow the other person to grow, but never too far to feel the LoVe deep within your being.

To let go of someone doesn't mean you have to stop LoVing, it only means that you allow that person to find his own happiness without expecting him to come back. Letting go is not just setting the other person free, but it is also setting yourself free from all bitterness, hatred, & anger that keep in your heart. Do not let the bitterness rare away your strength & weaken your faith & never allow pain to dishearten you, but rather let you grow with wisdom in bearing it. You may found peace in just LoVing someone from a distance not expecting anything in return. But be careful, for this can sustain life but can never give enough room for us to grow.

We can all survive with just beautiful memories of the past but real peace & happiness come only with open acceptance of what reality is today. There comes a time in our lives when we chance upon someone so nice & beautiful and we just find ourselves getting so intensely attracted to that person. This feeling soon become a part of our everyday lives & eventually consumes our thoughts & actions. The sad part of it is when we begin to realize that this person feels nothing more for us than just a friendship. We start our desperate attempt to get noticed & be closer but in the end our efforts are still unrewarded & we end up being sorry for ourselves.

You don't have to forget someone you LoVe. What you need to learn is how to accept the verdict of reality without being bitter or sorry for yourself. Believe me; you would be better off giving that dedication & LoVe to someone more deserving. Don't let your heart run your life, be sensible & let your mind speak for itself.

Listen not only to your feelings but to reason as well. Always remember that if you lose someone today, it means that someone better is coming tomorrow: If you lose LoVe that doesn't mean that you failed in LoVe.

Cry, if you have to, but make it sure that the tears wash away the hurt & the bitterness that the past has left with you. Let go of yesterday & LoVe will find its way back to you & when it does, pray that it may be the LoVe that will stay & last a lifetime.

50th Anniversary Gala Dinner

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Today I got invitatn card from FFPAM to go to their 50th anniversary gala dinner kt sunway resort hotel n spa on 23th august 2008..mcm bes. Gpn,fwe plk 2..erm,,chenta nk peg tp nk blk umah.nk wat keputusan yg mne erk..sadis yer la wat keputusn ni..nk peg due2 je rse tp spe plk nk anta g sne klo chenta dr umah..kne pk byk kali ni..dlm kad ni ad ckp “a tribute to partners and volunteers and the official launch of family health foundation Malaysia” erm..chenta volunteer kn???so,no wonder la chenta dpt invitatn card ni. Nk peg ato x, 2 keputusn chenta..nobody cn mad on me rite? Npe xnk confem kn btoi2 b4 send nme kn?

Roses

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perjalanan yang panjang..

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6 thn yg lps, satu waktu dl, chenta ni ibarat driver yg xpenh benti. chenta drive n trus drive, m’cari penumpg di tepi jlnan lebuh ry kehidupan agr dpt chenta pelawa seseorg untk dduk di sblh, menemani chenta dlm pemnduan chenta utk smpi ke destinasi. Akhrnya, chenta benti di depn aizuddin. chenta dpt rse kn die bkl m’jd teman yg tegar utk chenta b’sma-sma b’kogsi jlnn dlm jalur yg pnjg neh.Tp rupe ye, die hanya menemni chenta slm 3 thn je. 3 thn je..lps 2 die keluar dr kete ni dan m’jd pencari jlnn tnpa sbb yg chenta sendri xtaw. Berdentum bunyi pintu kete di tutup sm sperti hati chenta dikorek dan dicincg halus. Hilang perasaan chenta, hilg semangt chenta, hilg segala kekuatan chenta..secebis pn xda lg..tp chenta tetp trus kn pemnduan chenta. Tp chenta msh lg benti dan pelawa die nek kete yg chenta pndu. Tp kn die xsudi.. Mlh xbuka pn pintu kete tmpt dudk penumpg 2.
Bese ye, chenta akn trus kn pemnduan dan kembali m’cri penumpg yg len, yg lbh sesuai mungkin. Tp bezanya kali ni, chenta sekadr idup kn enjin kete dan chenta tetp benti di dpn aizuddin. Tnpa chenta pk tuk tekn minyk n b’lalu pergi. Byk kali chenta cbe, tp chenta xkuat... chenta tetp pk suatu hr nt, die akn sudi m’gisi kerusi kosong di sisi chenta n stuju tuk temni chenta m’neruskn p’gembaraan. chenta msh di situ, dlm kete di hentian yg sm, di hdpn aizuddin menanti dan trus mennti. Myb die slese duduk di kete yg len. Ya, mgkin benr die slesa duduk di kete yg lain.
Bru sekarg chenta sedr, kete chenta dh lme benti di depn aizuddin. Dh 3 thn chenta benti didepn die.. tp die msh lg xsudi.. chenta xtaw mne silp chenta smpi kn sekarg pn die xingin msk kete chenta lg. Mungkin kali ni, chenta harus keluar kete chenta. Dan biar chenta buka kete yg sedg mennti, biar chenta menemni pemndu yg sudi m’pelawa chenta utk naik b’sm. Mungkin chenta xperlu jd pemndu lg. Biar kali ni, chenta duduk di kerusi penumpg, menemani pemandu lain m’nuju ke destinasi…

going to MAHA again

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noe wat,,dis is 3rd tym i went to maha dis yr..xpuas laa..da byk lg tmpt yg peg lg..but unfortunately,,,kaki chenta t'seliuh...argh..sakit yer..igt kn maha 2 xda pape..tp xsgka plk, byk mnde bezz yg ble dpt kt sne..yeah,,nue xperience.memg borong orkid r kt sne.

1st day g sne ri 2,,cm xda pape je..tp klo nk dpt byk informatn bole r g sne..tym 2,xda yg menarik sgt..but d 2nd tym,,chenta nk tgk rodeo..pergh..ujan plk lps 2.nk tgk umah warisn pn xsempt.gpn,,chenta t'babas statn 2..lalalalala..sbb nk peg jugk umah warisn,chenta peg la mlm plk.lps beh shopping.tp syg,,byk yg dh tutup cm sia2 je dtg sne..bek achenta lepk tgk buge..tibe2 t'pk,klo la aizudin ad sti bez..tp 2 cte lme, chenta dh jnji ak nk lpe kn die..tp kne bg mse g 3 thn kot tuk btol2 lpe kn die..lalalala.ade ke cm2..xpatot,,xpatot.hu..

disebbkn ri2 xbli buge...dtg la lg kt maha neh tuk 3rd tym..n hopefully, its d laz tym...dpt la bli buge..yeah.plus 4 pokok orkd lg..waaa..bz yer klo da owg bg buge rose 2.nmpk cm kerts yer tp memg real nih..xcaye lgsg..bkn species yg sme kt umah chenta tuh.so,,b'puas ati la chenta m'beli belah..habis la 150rm jugk..cair wet chenta dok bli buge je.jpg nk g shoppg agi..xsabo nk blk umah.marah sgt nih gn abg emy..ade ke patot...

remembering..

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I’m going to UPM. it’s like I’m getting closer to my goals. Myb becz so many things hv happened recently, within dis 6 yrs. Therefore, I hv come closer to my dreams. In these few yrs, I hv experienced a lot of 1st times. First time I fell I love, first time I got dumped and first time that I am leaving my family to go to a completely unfamiliar place and start a new life. 2 me, all these hv happened too fast. It was so fast that I had no time to experience them properly. But I think dat this is part of the growing up process. Like I used to really like a guy, but in the end he gave me up. I feel very sad and heartbroken. But I tell myself that at least I have tried my best at the relationship and I fought for it, so I have no regrets. But I still want to say ‘thank you’ to him. Thank him for giving me so much happiness as well as so much pain. I think that during the days of growing up, I am lucky to have someone to go through it together with me. How can I forget? The times that I am with you are the happiest days of my life. I will never forget.

starting a new life

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i hv my family n fren who alwz supprt me...so,,nw i'll start a new life wit new strenght..wish me luck..i'll start a new life without continuously waiting u..